Hi! Friend Request!

Answer me this...

Why am I suddenly getting friend requests on that super cool social Facebook site from people I knew in high school....THAT I DIDN'T TALK TO AT ALL BY THE END OF SENIOR YEAR? While I was friends with these last few ppl who have send a friend request during our innocent freshman years, by the end of those 4 marching band filled years, I was suddenly 'not cool' enough to roll with that 'crew' anywhere anymore.

I've come to realize that I have changed quite a bit since those lovely 4 years. I used to care that I wasn't one of the 'cool' kids and would sometimes try really hard to please others. Ha, that is so not the case anymore. I will admit I take a small amount of pleasure seeing those blast from the past people that thought I wasn't cool enough and having them do the whole "omg how are you, it's been so long, what are you up to" and I respond with "we didn't talk in high school, you acted like a fucktard so why do you care what I'm up to now." The look of shock is pretty pleasing. Yes, it's mean and childish but whatev. I know every single person knows something that they have done that to or wish that they could do it to. Try it. it's fun. =) **shake them haters off**

I will say though that while I have no problem admitting that I am a bitch, can be really mean, and am super cynical, I also understand more about myself now and try to take other's feelings into account for certain situations. But if you act a fool...then there will be pointing and laughing involved. =)

Oh, and I still haven't accepted or denied the request. I think I will let them hold their breath...

The Good, The Bad & The Stupid

The Good
-Ryan & I went to Coach Robyn's house for a small get together. It was fun not having to worry about lunges and presses and just drinking beer. =)
-We printed our wedding invitations on Sunday!!! Now it's time to cut them to size and get them ready for a fun invitation making party. I'm so excited
-Ryan bought me a new golf bag. It's pink. Enough said.
-Ryan also took me to the driving range for the first time!!! OMG I loved it. I can't wait to go back again. He said I did pretty good for the first time. I was just glad that I hit the damn ball. I did hit the guy driving the ball picker-upper thing. Yea, super technical term. I'm going to be sooo good at remembering all the rules. Shut up.

The Bad
-The cookie cake pie from the CakeSpy turned out HORRIBLY for me! It didn't cook all the way through. Baking FAIL. That's all I want to say. I'm glad the CakeSpy's came out awesome. Mine did not. But I will say that the edges cooked great and they tasted amazing. Maybe once I get over the failure feeling, I'll try it again. maybe.
-I can not STAND how Michael's does not let you use a 40% off coupon on a product that is already on sale in their ad. Ummm...hello! You are still getting money! If Kohl's or Macy's did that shit, then they wouldn't have any shoppers. Don't they realize that if I can take more money off the more expensive item, then I can spend more money on other random crap that I don't need???

The Stupid
-I switched offices today for workity work today. Someone called today BITCHING that it was an INFERNO in their apartment....ummmm....it's 105 degrees outside, you live on the 2nd floor, hot air rises and you are one lucky ass bastard that your AC works and that it's 70 degrees. Yes, I understand that some people like their homes at 65 degrees....but seriously? The complex is over 20 years old, AC's are expensive so they are serviced as needed. It's how apartment complexes work. If you don't like it, then go live in a brand spankin new apartment and pay 5 times as much. F*cker ruined the end of my day.

This totally made the very end of my day though. Courtesy of I Pick Pretty. Go read her blog. And GO! Move it!

Mine!

Look what I got in the mail yesterday.....
**Drool**

I guess I know what I will be doing this weekend....

Reflection

Ok, so looking at my previous entry, I was pretty upset. Now that I've had time to think it over, I'm not as upset that those shorts didn't fit. I have been following a work out routine more consistently that I have ever done before and I am starting to see arm definition. So thinking a little more about it, I'm starting to think that the inability to put on said shorts is due to gaining more muscle in my legs (no explanation for a possibly bigger booty but we won't dwell on that point). I guess I still have a *slightly* small hang-up on the number inside of my jeans but I'm trying to get over that. As long as after a few more weeks then months at bootcamp I bring my body fat down and am able to run a little further and do a few more pushups, then I'll be happy.

Speaking of running, I did want go to Lake Pville tonight to run, but I also need to go to Academy to get new workout clothes. So I'm torn...to go work out, or to go get work out clothes. On the upside, I do have bootcamp Wednesday and Thursday, sooooo it's not like my workout will be neglected. =) Yea yea, I know, I'm reaching for the excuses. We shall see. Depends on how hot it still is after I get off work. Ryan is currently benched from working out because he got elbowed in the ribs playing basketball by some fool who thought he was trying out for the NBA....asshat. And I don't want my big Dakota Bear to get heat stroke if we go out there.

I think I want to make pesto sauce tonight...

I call foul!

Why do I call foul you ask? Because it makes me so mad that I feel like I'm doing well with working out, trying to lower the calorie intake and eat better and when I try on some old pairs of shorts that I think are my size that have been sitting in closet for awhile....and the effin' shorts DONT FIT. Not even like 'Oh they are a little snug' not fit, like 'I can't get them over this big ol' ass I have acquired'.....grrrrrrrrrrr. So frustrating. I don't have money to go out and buy a new weekend wardrobe. I can barely afford clothes for work (i.e. been shopping on craigslist and friend's closets for new to me clothes, not new at the store clothes).

I felt like I was getting better, like I could see a change. The clothes in my closet beg to differ. Which pisses me the eff off. =(

And done.

Weekend Review

Friday
Bootcamp night! Usually bootcamp is Monday, Wednesday and Thursday but our bootcamp leader had plans on Wednesday, so Friday makeup bootcamp was in order. I really can't say enough how happy I am that I found this bootcamp. The location is perfect, the other girls are so awesome, I just love it. And I already feel stronger from it. I'm not sure yet if I can see changed, but I can feel them. I need to work on the eating better part of my new 'get healthy' life plan, but I am getting better at that. I'm working on our meal plan for this week, so as soon as that is in order, I'll post it. I know you are on the edge of your seats...

Saturday
I went to work from 10 to 2 and it was uneventful, unfortunetly. Oh well, hopefully this week will be better. Then came home and cleaned the house. Ryan and I also went on a Half Price Books expedition and I got some really fun stuff. I bought Sandra Lee's Recipe Card Box and it has some good stuff. While some of her recipes are a little to 'store bought,' she has some really good ideas that I'll use a base.
I also about a new baking cookbook! Unfortunetly, I am not able to find it on a search of Amazon or Barnes & Noble.com (WEIRD) but it's an awesome book. It's called I *heart* Sugar (the *heart* is an actual shiny red heart). I'm so excited! I found a recipe that I'm going to make my Daddy for Father's Day. After our Half Price Books adventure, Ryan and I went to Diana's coming home party. She has been doing study abroad in Paris since January and is finally home! It was so fun. I love how her Mom makes food every time & homemade Mexi-tini's...mmmmm. =)

Sunday
Yea, so bootcamp was a FAIL this morning. I woke up with a sinus headache so that made for a very unpleasant Sunday morning/afternoon. The family also came to the house so Ryan could load some stuff on my brother's brand-spankin' new Macbook (**jealousy**) so I tried to keep my head exploding through that. I was so mad I missed my workout. Hopefully that doesn't throw off my workout motivation this week.

Bootcamp tomorrow!!! *woot*

changes...

i sense a change coming on. a huge change. not anything that can be seen on my blog or anything like that. a change of mentality. i've started the bootcamp/working out thing. but it's finally time to change the mindset. i keep saying i'll do it sometimes, well today is the day that it will actually start. i'm tired of the feeling that it's suddenly summer and being afraid of being invited to pool parties or the prospect of being in a swimsuit. i will win. i will look cute in my new swimsuit.

Bootcamp: Day 3 + Random Rambling

I'm about to say something that I have never really said or thought before......

I like working out!

Yup, that's right. I said that I am starting to like this whole working out thing. Join a bootcamp. Go do it now! I know that Vic does one further south/central than I am, so go ask her what her bootcamp is all about! But watch out, she might be a little whoozy from her surgery. =) *love ya Vic*

So I got hung up on today. It was hilarious. People are special. That's all I'm going to say.

My brother graduates tomorrow. SOOOOOOOOOO excited. I can't wait to see him walk across that stage! Boston, here I...uh, I mean he....comes! LOL. But in all seriousness, he worked so hard to get where he is now.

I'm sleepy. I think it's going to be an early bedtime tonight.

Bootcamp: Day 2

Yup. Just as awesome as the 1st day. I really like the other girls that are in the class too. And I can totally feel my arm muscles. I'm going to have 'guns' by the end of this. Michelle Obama arms, here I come! =)

That is all.

Wow

It's been a looooooooong while! Here's the awesomeness.

Jobbie
It's going really well (I think). It's something tooootally different from anything I've every done before. But I'm trying to learn everything that I can as quickly as I can. Downside of the jobbie is that I have to work from 10-2 on Saturdays, but eh, what can ya do. At least it's not a retail job where I have to work until after closing till 11pm. That sucked. But I'll keep ya posted on how it goes. =)

Workout
I joined another bootcamp (bootcamp #2)! And omg, it's really fun. We did initial testing yesterday and I think I did pretty damn well, considering that I had worked out with Helen (bootcamp #1) on Sunday morning and was still sore. I think doing both of these bootcamps are really going to whip me into shape in time for the wedding! I just need to get better control on what I'm eating.

Wedding
We ordered the groomsmen's ties! I can't wait to get them! I love getting fun stuff in the mail!

Oh, and VS swimsuit....
So the swimsuit came in and the verdict is.......bleh. It's such a cute swimsuit, but not when you are 'squishy'. Hopefully bootcamp #2 can help on this swimsuit fiasco.